Hiiii!

Today: a short yap about computer hardware:

Damn I love the AM4 socket its so upgradable yay, bought a Ryzen 9 5900X for our old desktop soon to be homelab and so excited for it.

Computers are fun! (and expensive)

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Also, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It’s for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well.

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  • BountifulEggnog [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    17 hours ago
    spoiler
    self harm / suicidal thoughts (yes again 😭 sorry I keep doing this)

    I’ve gone back to self harm after about two months clean. Honestly idgaf about being clean or not right now, I want the suffering to stop. There is only one way for that to happen.

    I have never been able to deal with anything. I’ve always been weak and pathetic. I don’t think there’s anything that could have gone better for me, to make me not turn out like this.

    I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. Why can’t I be free. Why is dying just… Nothing. There is no bliss, no great life, it’s just over. It’s just suffering my whole existence and then it’s over. Why don’t I get to not suffer.

    • MoonElf [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
      9·
      12 hours ago

      Oh Egg you poor dear i’m so sorry to hear this 🫂 It sounds like you’re going through a very difficult time I wish there was something I could do for you! I hope you are getting some help locally??

        • MoonElf [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
          9·
          11 hours ago

          That’s some pretty heavy stuff to be going through on your own. My heart goes out to you i spent a long time wrestling those black thoughts and I know how miserable it can be.

          For what it’s worth I care about you and what happens to you and I know there’s others here who do too. Please be kind to yourself!