I’m not here to whinge about the sorts of things depressed people do. Yeah, life sucks, and for my generation, we learned that from The Princess Bride.

But a week into this hell, I find myself unable to identify what a light at the end the the tunnel would even look like, and whether there’s any way to distinguish it from a train.

I know many of you have it worse than I do, and I’m not trying to suggest otherwise. My job no longer exists. That’s small potatoes against fearing for your life. But this is one battle too many. I’m using short, declarative sentences.

I called my mom today, and it came up that I have no active plans, but I’d not so much complain about not waking up tomorrow. I’m just exhausted. Things have been going backward for 20-plus years, and we were able to paper over it for about three.

What hope is there? I did a coding bootcamp in 2021 because I had nothing official on my resume, and JS was going to be easy. So. Writing is worthless. Editing is worthless. Fact-checking is worthless. Print design is worthless. Navigating data when it’s not in your job description is worthless. And god forbid you attempt to code without your handlers’ approval.

I don’t see what comes next.

  • xavier_berthiaume@jlai.luEnglish
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    3 days ago

    I feel a really similar sense of dread. Although I completed my university studies in a STEM field, there simply aren’t many jobs that seem to be left. I don’t know what will come next, but I stay hopeful that what comes after that will be a better time for all of us. I dream of a more compassionate society, where we make significant progress as individual communities on how to better live in harmony with our environments. Let’s hope that what comes next doesn’t prevent me from helping make that dream a reality.

    • SanctimoniousApe@lemmings.worldEnglish
      3·
      3 days ago

      Good luck with that. Evil will always win because it’s willing to do anything to win, while good - simply by definition - is not. We’re fucked.

      • Megaman_EXE@beehaw.orgEnglish
        9·
        3 days ago

        Nah man, don’t give up hope yet. People are maybe screwed short term, but collectively, we’ve kicked nazi ass multiple times. We’ve done it before, we can do it again.