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hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!
the list as it stands:
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i got dragged to a catholic service last sunday and it was boring af
how do people do that every week. at least the evangelical church i grew up in had energy
CW: Severe dysphoria and depression, discussion of self-harm, relationship and familial issues
I can’t be around here right now. Everything is setting of severe dysphoria and depression. I’ve had to completely disconnect from any talk about gender, sex, or relationships as it torpedoes my mental state immediately. I’ve even been avoiding my friends and “family.” Family being my mother and sister, who are now on the verge of being tossed out of my fucking life. It’s like everyone lacks empathy. No one understands the sheer immensity of the pain and suffering I’m going through right now. “Just cheer up. Smile and you’ll be fine. That’s no reason to be so upset.” Thanks mom. Go fuck yourself. You’ve not exactly been the most helpful during my transition these last few years. The shadow of my ex continues to hang over me and I’ve destroyed some things in my house that remind me of him. I’ve been extremely not well if that’s not clear. I even skipped out on making the topic this week cause I just can’t. I’m glad I value my life so highly otherwise I might not be here right now. It’s crossed my mind on more than one occasion recently, too. Even my therapist isn’t fucking helping me. Ugh.
I just wish I was born a woman. I feel like a horrible facsimile. Like someone was given a doll and parts and told to do their best. This vagina. These breasts. They all feel horrendously fake. I feel like someone took a hobby knife to a Ken doll and just did what they could. I can’t stand it. I just want to feel me. I wish I could’ve grown up properly. I wish I could have a uterus. I wish I could have children to raise and watch grow up and give a good life to. I wish I could’ve had all those experiences in life that cis-women just take for granted. I can’t take this. I just can’t.
I know almost none of you really know me or care about me and I apologize for shitting up the mega. All of you are so happy with what you’re going through that you don’t deserve to see the absolute trainwreck that is my life right now. I’m sorry, but with no one to properly just vent to, I resort to coming here. Legitimately if you don’t like it and don’t care to see this, I will stop. Just tell me in reply or PM. Seriously.
I like how “NB” is apparently Chinese internet slang for very cool/awesome.
ff
hate it when the site calls me out
I have to start finding a replacement for my HRT soon, I only have enough to last the month… but theres so much fucking work to do fucking gah
immature
going to the theatre to see smegmalion by george bernard shart
I’m listening to “A Funeral of Flowers” from Fire Emblem: Three Houses, and I just noticed the channel name: Ashen Wolf. I am an imposter…
got to watch Nosferatu in a theater all to myself, which was great because 1) I feel awkward watching sex scenes with other people, even if they’re strangers several feet away from me, and 2) I got to sit in girly positions without feeling self conscious about it, and stand up when I felt tired of sitting
Been hearing that trans people have been getting bullied on RedNote. Is this true? I’ve been on that app for a year and never really noticed any strong anti-queer behavior compared to places like instagram
ive successfully switched classes from an asshole teacher who took an insane problem with me to a class that seems to have a good and mature professor. Besides that whole debacle my week has been pretty good. I have a job now too!
Who up transing their gender
CW: Dysphoria
My dysphoria has been building up this week. I still have cold symptoms, and can’t wear proper make-up due to wiping my nose/mask that smears it. Almost cried a few times this week, either looking at my outfit or at my body or my face. Wearing eye makeup helps, but I still feel too nervous to wear mascara to work. Once my nails grow a bit more I think I need to start painting them. They were at a decent length last weekend, but I chickened out and cut them instead.
Also still worried about the passport, but my therapist wrote a very nice support letter that I hope clears things up for the passport agency.
I am smoothing
i am running out of room on my bed for more plushies and it is A Problem.
