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I finally got off anti-depressants only to find out that I’ve still got some depression apparently. Reminded me of this comic (credit Haus of Decline):
Either way, guess I’m going back on a low dose of anti-depressants. At least my voice training is going ok!
Had a nice long chat with the wife. Basically explaining the story so far, all those obvious-in-hindsight things. Talked about how I want to start HRT, and what that will entail. She’s cool with it becoming a same-sex marriage, and went as far as to say “I know you’re not the type to fool around, but if you decide you like men instead, that’s OK with me”.
Since coming out things have been noticeably friendlier (not in a euphemistic way, just actually talking about stuff in a warmer tone). Which is surprising, but I’ll take it!
Things might all turn out OK after all. ☺️
so happy to hear that - incredible! 🥰
Proud of you
Been feeling a decent amount of gender euphoria eight months in. Caught covid.
aww, glad you’re feeling gender euphoria - if you have the time, I would love to hear more details 👀
Sorry you got COVID, tho - that sucks. It seems like everyone I know is getting COVID right now.
I went to a yearly family event and felt much more comfortable in myself as opposed to last time I went. Wasn’t as self conscious and standoffish as I used to be. Gender dysphoria isn’t the only thing occupying my mind at all hours now. It’s great.
That’s awesome, thanks for sharing! ❤️
Busy and focused on work. Every day I feel exhausted, I’m not going to bed early enough. 😪
God I feel this so much. The only real free time I get is on train rides to work and back, and even there like 50% of the time I’m flat asleep until I arrive at my stop because I’m sleep deprived.
I know I’m not the one that should be saying this but by now, after several years of doing this, I can say from experience that sleeping 4 h during the day and crashing for 12 h on the weekend really isn’t healthy…
Please try to take better care of yourself than I do
damn, that’s brutal - it sounds you you need to take care of yourself! 🫂
I started progesterone yesterday and it’s already giving me better sleep, allowing me to sleep a little more deeply and longer than before. I had been having trouble even catching up on sleep on the weekend because I was just doing estrogen monotherapy, I would sleep like 6 hours and the body would wake up and I couldn’t fall asleep, even if I felt tired.
I hate to admit it but I can’t do much sadly… Most of the sleep issues right now are caused by heat and I can’t really do anything against it (for example installing an AC is literally illegal because of the type of house). (Yes, I’m looking to move again dw)
But hey, I started E today so maybe that’ll help a little
Good luck with your transition and we hope you find some way to cool down, is fans accessible where you are? As in the UK they are pretty much common place instead of getting AC and could take the edge off
A fan would be possible but I would not be able to sleep with it turned on either… TwT
Every day is a battle
🫂 we love you - take care of yourself!
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It’s been kinda difficult, I ended up reaching a point that I used the suicide hotline number but the person on the other end was very helpful and I feel a lot better now :3
Seems like it’s on an upswing. I’ve been short on spoons lately which I’m attributing to a combination of work stress and an increase in my E dosage. Toned that back and this week is going better so far.
I’m still hunting for a new job, though. I wanna get out of SRE and into a proper software engineering position.
Life-like. Reorganization leading to my job changing from IT support to… cybersecurity? I think? Not particularly happy about it as I joined this team temporarily to help out, was more or less told I could get out of it at any time, and now it’s my full time job and I can no longer go back.
