Another week, another thread. Go out there and have a good one everyone! 
AFAB and AMAB is too often used as an adjective, when it should be used as a verb phrase (assigned x at birth). In other words, it belongs after the noun, not before.
AMAB woman - “assigned male at birth woman”
woman AMAB - “woman [that was] assigned male at birth”By re-iterating that these acronyms are verb phrases and thus actions, we can re-emphasize the social construction of AMAB/AFAB and combat the tendency to use these acronyms as a way to simply misgender trans people.
I love to see theory in the trans mega
thanks i theorized this myself i think
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I suppose, but its use as an attributive isn’t that common at least from personal experience.
I dyed my hair dark, metallic purple tonight. I payed for it in significant soreness, but the results say that it was worth it. The dye worked very well with my natural hair color so I’m super happy.
purple hair gang we out here 😎
Just want to say: huge thanks to the mods and admins for adding my pronouns
Leslie Feinberg used ze so it’s about time!
Telling my wife she is cute:
She says “no”:
We have no self-hatred and we ask no self-hatred of you. When our turn comes, we shall not make excuses for the compliments.
cis people are kinda bullshit to be honest. like, i have nothing against them but you mean you popped out and felt everything was just fine, you got the soft skin and the girl shape and the hormones and the bottom parts all the way you wanted them without any effort? bullshit, i have to work for that. cis people are cheating
Some goober told them the gender the were, and they went ‘AYUP THAT SCANS’??? Sus…
i mean i tried that for a good 20 years. almost worked, sort of. not really
I can’t find the emoji that’s the down with cis pixel art bus but pretend I posted it here
I’m so happy I got bottom surgery. For the multitude of reasons mentioned prior and the following.
Talking about genitals, slightly NSFW
My new bits feel amazing. Still mostly numb, but the parts that aren’t are awesome. So much better than having a penis. Things finally feel right.
Life is great :>
clueless but well meaning questions
Is the numbness supposed to be temporary or will it start having feeling soon? Is there any real way to know or is it a wait and see deal?
Explanations
It is very much temporary. Numbness can last up to a year. I started to get some feeling back already, but most of it is numb still. Probably a good 95% still is. The clitoris was never numb btw, which is the important part imo. Also, if my puppy wife is anything to go by, it all resolves within 6 months. But yeah, it is definitely a wait and see ordeal.
I think it was like two months for me (it’s been a while), so if you’re lucky you may not need to wait so long! Congrats on the surgery.
Thank you :3
I’m 6 weeks post-op this week so I still have time. I AM nervous about it all because I had a tummy tuck the better part of a decade ago and never regained feeling from it. Even if this never regained feeling I’d still be okay, but it would definitely be less than ideal.
Can I ask how much you paid for the surgery? I’ve been wanting it for a while and I’ve just heard it’s so overwhelmingly expensive I haven’t had the energy to confirm that.
At least in any state on the west coast it would be covered by insurance pretty much entirely I am pretty sure. In fact I have a trans friend who paid 50 dollar copay for her FFS and another 50 dollar copay for her top surgery (BA)
50 dollar copay for her FFS
God damn :sicko-wistful: I would have thought ffs would be like, thousands or tens of thousands. Just completely out of reach. Cool that insurance covers it.
California requires coverage I believe for all gender affirming stuff. Laser hair removal for face (you can argue for body too…), ffs, BA, bottom surgery… depends on your insurance plan but I would hit the deductible for this so it would be like 2k?
In my experience it was hitting the deductible and a copay for the hospital stay. My deductible was in the lower end so it wasn’t that bad. It varies based on insurance and state though
Not a dime. My insurance paid for it in its entirety. Mind you I met a $3k deductible prior to it. However, it was roughly $36k if my hospital paperwork is to be believed.
a few days ago at the mosque two were talking about me like
“why is there a girl over there?”
“I think her dad brought her with him”
“She’s way too old for that”
I got my hair cut today and I’m really proud
Last time I got a haircut was about three months ago, and it was kinda fem-leaning androgynous (mostly because it’s long). It was so important to me to have that shield of androgyny. In case people looked weirdly at me or something I would always have the excuse of just being a “naturally” feminine guy and not trying to be perceived as a woman or anything scary like that.
Today I got something way more explicitly feminine, because I don’t feel like I need that excuse any more, and I can just live as myself.
Also the haircut is very cute.
I’ve been told this can be a trans thing but my “derealization/depersonalization” (if that’s what this feeling is) has been ramping up the last couple of days. Almost everything I do I just have no faith actually happened. I’ll get up, lock my door, sit back down and wonder “did I really lock the door?” or I’ll have a conversation and be like “did that really happen?”. Like this has always been a bit of background noise (if that makes sense) but I feel like it’s getting worse/more noticeable.
I’ve been told this can be a trans thing
Hoping that’s it for me… that would explain a lot.
dp/dr can def be a trans thing (at least for me, it was a lot easier to just not have life be real than deal with dysphoria) and it can def be worse if something has happened recently to kick up that dysphoria.
Its a really horrible feeling
I’m kinda starting to accept the idea that I might not be a guy (crazy I know, a they/them who’s been posting in the trans mega for like two months + reads every comment might not be cis). I still swing back and forth but I think a lot of its cope. I don’t fully know exactly what I want but I’m really leaning towards being femme in some capacity. Not sure if that’ll be a fem enby or a transwoman.
I really wish I could try more clothes. I’m actually crying because I can’t. I don’t know how I’d feel but it’d be nice to try.
What do I even do hexbear. I’m lost. Any advice/articles/videos would be appreciated. (not even just about not being able to do anything, just in general about self realization too)
I feel like I can’t “do” anything about it. Can’t get clothes, can’t try makeup, etc. I suppose I could change my pronouns here but I’d just feel like a fake.
gotta have some dysphoria posting, ya know?
I’m so incredibly tall
Like I’m quite tall for a guy but there’s basically no women who are this tall. I’ll be instantly clocked forever I just want to be petite and cute.Sorry this is so disjointed that’s how my brain is working right now. A few loosely connected thoughts.
You’re not alone in having height dysphoria
Not sure how you feel about hrt, but that is something that can (maybe, not guaranteed) reduce your height by a few inches. If you haven’t already I highly recommend reading through The Gender Dysphoria Bible, it helped me out a lot back when I was questioning stuff and figuring myself out.Feel free to ignore if you’re not comfortable answering, but why can’t you do anything? Is there something specific that’s preventing you from trying on clothes and makeup?
Three inches still puts me as taller then basically all women
I guess it would still be better then nothing though. I didn’t know hrt could do that. That’s such a good resource! Maybe I need to reread it if I missed height being effected by hrt though 
I still live at home. And my parents aren’t super supportive of trans people. Plus I have a younger sibling/siblings. I don’t know. I just don’t think they’d really like it and that would be really upsetting. I really wish this could just wait until I leave
The height thing is mostly because of how your posture may change after fat redistribution. But also, if you’re under 25, HRT can affect how your hipbones fuse, which I think also affects it?
Yeah, there’s a surprising amount of changes that can come with hrt! Hormones have a really big impact on biological sex, much more than chromosomes.
It really sucks that you’re not in a supportive environment :( Maybe you can get away with growing your hair out and doing some voice training while you’re still living at home. And you can probably find skinny jeans and pink t-shirts or hoodies in the men’s section, could be a way to get some more fem clothes without looking too sus.
Also maybe look into finasteride. It’s something cis men take all the time, so your doctor should be able to give you a prescription. It’s not hrt, but it will remove any risk of balding, and can potentially reverse balding if it’s already happened. There’s also a very low chance of it having some feminizing effects, apparently.
I’m really leaning towards being femme in some capacity. Not sure if that’ll be a fem enby or a transwoman.
Seems like a reason to aim towards that direction and see where it takes you. Given how many people have difficulty calling themselves a woman when they have a very masculine body, I personally just use the transfem NB label, but I’m don’t really feel locked in on any particular label. OTOH, I think my uncertainty is a large contributor to why I have a hard time coming out because I don’t want to seem like I’m just doing it because its trendy or something.
I really wish I could try more clothes. I’m actually crying because I can’t. I don’t know how I’d feel but it’d be nice to try.
If home isn’t a safe-place, could you try our clothes at stores? It can be scary though. Also, sometimes can cause dysphoria because the clothes don’t look they way you would like with your current body, but that’s still useful information. OTOH, sometimes things you don’t expect to care much for can be surprisingly nice.
just in general about self realization too
https://freethoughtblogs.com/nataliereed/2012/04/17/the-null-hypothecis/
If you haven’t read the above article or similar ones, it might be helpful (not necessarily endorsing the entire article, but the main idea can be helpful). There’s should be no need to prove that you are trans (or any specific sublabel) to anyone, including yourself. If you approached the question from the default of being trans and tried to prove you are actually cis to the standard of evidence, how well would that go?
I suppose I could change my pronouns here but I’d just feel like a fake.
I hope no one here would want you to feel that way. For me, it was putting “they/them” as my twitch pronouns that I considered for a long time, but since I thought I was “technically cis” it would somehow be insulting to trans people. Every time I’ve seen that topic come up since, people have been overwhelmingly supportive of the idea that people should just use the pronouns they sincerely want. Of course our biggest judges tend to be ourselves, but if you’re thinking you want she/her, she/they, etc then go for it! If for some reason you change your mind, you can just change it back.
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Like I’m quite tall for a guy but there’s basically no women who are this tall. I’ll be instantly clocked forever
Pretty sure I’ve heard of other really tall trans women saying it surprisingly hasn’t really been a problem for them. I remember one person talking about how they’ve embraced their height and even do things like wear high heels and such.
But yeah, height is annoying. Its funny how guys like to exaggerate their height. Meanwhile, I’ve been told I’m taller than I say I am by a few guys… most of the time it seems they take offense at it because we’re basically the same height.
But it does make it add an additional challenge to finding clothes that fit well. And I’m barely above average for men, so still within the range of lots of cis women. But unfortunately, even fairly normal cis women are often excluded by fashion standards. Some companies just don’t want to make clothes to fit larger people because they think it would reflect badly on their brand image, for example.
Yea that’s definitely how I feel.
clothes shopping
and be some lumbering pervert. Be a fucking massive dude trying on girl clothes that won’t fit right anyway.Yea, that’s kinda the two ways it could go. I don’t really know what the first would tell me but it’d be something.
The null hypothesis is very helpful to me. “How well would that go?” Not very. If I was born a woman I don’t think I’d be switching.
I know they wouldn’t want me to feel that way, but I still would
I had the biggest load of cope ever to set my tag to they/them when I signed up. It just… doesn’t feel right to set them as she/her or she/them when I’m living as a cis guy.
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I don’t really know what the first would tell me but it’d be something.
Personally, I tried out cosplaying as a female character in public with family and friends (only a couple of whom I’m out to) and I enjoyed it, but I won’t look at pictures because I look like “a guy in a dress” so to speak and I disliked that. The reaction of strangers generally seemed to assume I dressed the way I did to be funny and had someone ask me what I was using for boobs when I was just walking by them, but no one said anything bad. Had a couple aunts ask to take pictures of me because their niece was a fan of that character and neither of them acted weird about it, so that was cool. Overall, I think it just confirmed that I’d like to work towards having a body that I could dress like that without it being seen as some sort of joke or have people question what I’m using for boobs. Perhaps just moving out of Texas would help with that though.
It just… doesn’t feel right to set them as she/her or she/them when I’m living as a cis guy.
Relatable. The immediate motivation to finally start HRT for me was I don’t want to be an uncle (sister announced she was pregnant) and I don’t want to look like an uncle when the child is learning to talk. Like, I already basically planned on eventually trying HRT, but that was a reason to not delay getting started (my plan was to wait at least a few more years to save up more money).
Hopefully you can feel comfortable making the pronoun change here soon though.
why are women’s clothes the way that they are
I gonna blame men often owning clothing brands for women.
Seeing a new psychiatrist and getting gender euphoria from her using my chosen pronouns. Planning to order my first dress this week :) Everything is great
Listening to transfemmes describe their 2nd puberty makes me think of my first (and so far only but that will change someday
). Like… maybe I should have taken more opportunities to cry. I find it so difficult to cry.frustration
I look pretty, my body is perfect to me, I’m completely fine with everything in it, I’m fine even with facial hair, but the genitalia fucks me up bad
Can relate
I don’t know if any of you can relate but sometimes I wish I was a girl 👉👈
if after death i get the choice of some afterlife or reincarnation as a magical transing fairy that grants wishes i would do that shit for eternity in a heartbeat
wish granted
But fairy godmother, nothing changed!
still working on that part.
just dedicate yourself to Ishtar our one and only trans goddess and hopefully may her blessing fall upon you
came out to one of my last good RL friends from back in the day felt really awesome
going to see her later this week and don’t really have anything to mask anymore
slowly educating my parents for the inevitable. they’re shitlibs and misguided my mom sounds like a TERF sometimes but honestly she’s just clueless. like she supports trans kids but is weird about transfemmes. she was like “look at these people i work with on facebook and their wedding”
and i was like “looks like a nice lesbian wedding”
and she goes “but that’s a guy!”
“no it’s two women”
“but she has a penis!” (i was impressed how she didn’t misgender after i said that. shitlib not chud)
“yeah it’s a woman with a penis so what”
and that was the end of that. need more time. still got 6 mos to a year before i get this rolling
