I used to think I’m not trans enough, that the thoughts I might’ve had were just about my gender expression, that I’d be alright with being a femboy, that I wouldn’t ever feel a desire to change parts of my body.

But once I got to it, I just couldn’t help but browse the trans and egg memes, read the stories, see the pictures. Not all, but many of them felt relatable to me.

But I guess how the veil of “I just want to be a feminine guy” came down was thinking of if I wanted everyone to think of me as a man for the rest of eternity. I felt the pressures of toxic masculinity already trying to punish me through being labeled as “gay”.

Once I realized I didn’t want to be a guy, I just had to figure out where to go from there. I was already transgender at that point. All the validation of “real trans people” which I hadn’t previously thought of as applying to me was all the sudden empowering. I couldn’t really believe it at first, how unlike would it be that I would be trans. But I guess someone has to play that part. And since I am trans, I can nudge or redefine my identity anywhere I feel like…

Throughout all of these, journaling really helped. Writing down daily thoughts, often about gender, did help me see the thought patterns.

I now feel like there is no me without being transgender. I don’t wish to be normal. If you take away my transness, you take away a core part of me.

That’s why I am now slowly planning to transition.

I don’t want people to see me without a core part of me being there.

I’d wager a fake vote count would be much easier to detect than the same amount of fake users

I see only OP calling for defedding instances that don’t defed Meta. Fedipact https://fedipact.online/ makes no mention, never seen it on Mastodon. I think the flamewar should be toned down a little.

I’ve had multiple conversations about liberalism and come to realize there’s a multitude of definitions none of which make complete sense. A left-wing definition might be “liberal democratic capitalism” like most of Europe is, with neoliberal being a more right-wing version of that like the US. A right-winger might use liberal to mean someone culturally progressive. Sometimes liberal is used to mean someone who wants a smaller government, sometimes it is confused with libertarianism (which was originally left-wing but co-opted by free market capitalists).

I don’t think the term “liberal” is useful anymore, it’s mostly thrown around towards people you perceive to be the status quo.

This instance is blahaj.zone, hosted by the folks at blahaj.zone?

This, except Librewolf on desktop and Mull on android to get some extra hardening.

I use Mull which is hardened for privacy. All Fennec derivatives support custom addons and setting the collection yourself is possible.

Maybe you’ve also absorbed your beliefs from people around you, maybe not. I’d recommend you read this essay by comrade ziq, give it a thought factcheck it if you want to. I find standing in support of the states or atleast the supposed ideologies of the states that have done terrible things (that at least don’t fit in my ideology of tolerance) to among others, queer people and other leftists, very distasteful and repulsive. It’s not that we say “fuck tankies” for giving food to homeless people, that’s not an uniquely tankie thing. It’s the tanks yall.