Listened to the song for the first time in forever. Thank you

“nothing ever happens”

“but chudda, what if-”

"it won’t.”

Am I a class traitor, a revisionist, and secretarian if I’d be down to see the Minecraft Movie?

I haven’t gotten very far in it and I’ve been exposed

My lists tend to disintegrate when faced with reality. Who would win in a fight? Highly organized list vs 1 external dependency:

Case and point, had an external dependency that turned a small portion of a task into 2 big tasks. Now the schedule for the todo list is torched. Am I supposed to be disappointed after doing 2 big tasks? I think the fuck not

Well, for a long time it was getting my black belt in BJJ. It’s a tangible, finite, far off goal that can be achieved through my own work and dedication. However, 11 years later it’s likely no further out than a well planned vacation, I have enough money to afford tuition until then, there’s nothing more I must to learn about the art, I am 3-1 against black belts in competition, and I’m no longer coaching. When I was starting, it felt like this far off goal and you could day dream like “is it even possible? imagine what it would be like… what a wonderful journey ahead of me!” and now it’s like being tenured so if I think it would be funny to practice punch chokes, wrist locks, and foot sweeps then I can run around giggling and seldom am I kept in check. If I hear them groan from top pressure I’ll squeeze the air out of their torso like deflating a mattress until they sweep me so I can practice my escapes instead. The point being that this goal that was so far off stops being such a driving force in my life because the goal isn’t even off over the horizon anymore - it’s (likely) <50 commutes away.

Therefore it forces my perspective to shift. I’ve been doing a lot of heavy emotional work lately (which is the impetus for writing this out). My intention, informed by multiple bouts of achieving things I set my mind to, is to do what I do mindfully instead of zerging to the goal with the punchy epithet. I want to enjoy it, decorate it, research it, savor doing it, face failure unabashedly, and put it down when it doesn’t excite me regardless of the treadmill implying there’s some new shiny thing to progress to. I’d also love to use my cultivated skills, natural talent and demeanor to help people. Like if I could feasibly help the LGBT find a foothold in martial arts (especially curated and abridged for self defense/being protest ready) then I’d consider it a huge win. I think there are proportionately less lefties than there are the other things at the highest belt level and proportionately less of them are in charge of gyms/programs. And those gyms/programs are proportionately less geared towards the specific audience of hexchuds.

I had to do a whole lot of this and that to learn to let go of the idea of time being wasted if the thing wasn’t forever. Really had to run it down mid and cry a bunch to realize how much the pressure of wanting thing to be forever and viewing it with the perspective of demise as an end point diminished how much I could savor thing. If you’re like me, you’ll spend as much time thinking about thing while you have thing instead of just enjoying thing even if enjoying it is the definitive experience of thing.

Yeah, fair enough. Elden Ring was a masterpiece. I hear they did it again with DLC. Then, as far as I’m concerned, they exited stage right. Beautiful performance

Very Lies of Locke Lamora-core

You leftists are faaaaar too demanding of Biben! Think for just a second about what he’d have to do to enshrine equal rights: he’d have to sign the document. With a pen. With his name. The motherfucker couldn’t draw a clock right now; how’s he supposed to write?!

Just saw a video of a cricket vs a praying mantis. I strongly feel that that was as far as evolution was supposed to go. Like God set biological life in motion with self-replicating molecules. It was meant to have 3 “holy shit!” moments. First, you’d take shrooms and witness the invention of the eukaryotic cell. Second, a tab of acid to admire the Cambrian explosion. Finally, you take an edible and watch cricket vs praying mantis. Then you go “damn, being God is crazy cause you get to invent shit like life.” then you go back to making neutron stars and using gravitational waves to relax in your wave pool.

Like seriously, you weren’t even supposed to be here. Our purpose is to sit here and wait for God to be like “oh holy shit, I forgot to throw away life from the fridge after I was done with it. It’s so rotten that it started to grow hair and produce smoke!!” Whose idea was it to do more than a full, honest days work (4 hours tops), love your family, indulge in an intoxicant, and play a game? And if that’s the case, who are these freaks fighting in wars? You want to go shoot people?? IN ORDER TO EXPLOIT PEOPLE??? FOR TREATSSSSS??? Like shut the fuck up and queue up a League game if you like violence of the soul so much.

Destroying the deep state while Elon and Matt Gaetz are in your cabinet is crazy. Like you have documentation of the pedophilia and they just fucking murked Epstein after it was a big story. Then all they can talk about in congress is how much they want people to suffer and how genocide is actually… le good! What do you need a deep state for? The deepest part is what they’re getting delivered for lunch. That’s the only pertinent part that you’d need a FOIA request to learn about. The nightmares of yesteryear that would be in hushed whispers and coded language is the soup du jour.

Uncomfortable conversation time:

Trump went to the UFC fights last night. You know who’s sitting right next to him? . Do you, with all the theory in your brain and empathy for the subjugated in society in your heart, feel bad for someone who is being followed around by the most divorced man of all time? Keep in mind Trump is a ra(choose your favorite consonant)ist who panders to the worst instincts of the barbaric amogus while contributing more than his fair share to a genocide.

But to not be able to go to the dang UFC fights without Elon following you around?

@[email protected] Is there any way to collect financial compensation from the creators of Factorio for the transition from conventional materials to robotics, space exploration, and nuclear power? This increase in complexity is violence and it’s traumatic.

when the comrade is funny

I went on a first date with someone I didn’t really click with. Pretty glad the week is winding down. Gonna play some Mario Party with relatively new friends tomorrow. can’t really complain

Well, I already have to be an imposter on leftist boards. That’s not technically correct - my boss tells me that I’m not supposed to post in the places I monitor cause “I might get compromised.” But he’s a piece of shit anyway and if I had a union he’d change his tone. But anyway, the point is that I get a lot of CBT therapy in regards to imposter syndrome. My crotch is always sore but it seems to help.

I am watching the fight slop and you can’t stop me.

I FUCKING HATE THE CIA! HOLY SHIT I’M SO FUCKING MAD

The sales price for floss was 10% higher than it used to be