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Cake day: March 20th, 2024

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  • I realise that a big part of the difficulties I experienced was because I never really took a moment to sit still and check whether what I was doing made sense. Like, is this actually what I want to do, is this even good for me? (mentally and physically)

    I finally got the time to think a bit, and it made so much difference. At the beginning you still feel a lot of pressure from yourself, because obviously there is a financial part to it. But even beyond that, I noticed I always wanted to be doing something productive (Like doing exercise, making better food, learning some skill, etc.)

    After a while (and doing a bit more meditation), the perspective started to shift and I started to realise that most things are much more bearable, if not even fun, when you start just taking your time, not rushing yourself, not trying to optimise everything. This applies to work, but also hobbies, like gaming and browsing the internet. Even gaming becomes stressful if you are always looking for the next goal, the next target and your start filling hours upon hours with that activity.

    Talking with other people seems to put this into perspective. It’s so easy to tell somebody else to not worry about something and take it easy. But then you realise that they could give that same advice to you and it would still apply. Sometimes just acting/talking towards yourself with the same concern and compassion that you show other people (even strangers) can be so helpful.












  • Usually i’m kinda fine with being dirty for a while. Although being overly sweaty can be a bit uncomfortable. I think my partner is bothered more by this. Especially if the apartment gets dirtier than usual. (I normally do the cleaning and cooking)

    It’s a bit strange actually. I know that it’s ok to order food or eat out somewhere nearby when I’m sick. But at the same time, I don’t really have the capacity to make a choice, and even feel like I shouldn’t do it (because it’s less healthy, more expensive) Maybe it’s because anxiety gets stronger when feeling sick? Not sure.

    I would love to watch some show or read a bit when sick. But often my eyes become dry and hot when sick. Combined with a headache and suddenly I don’t enjoy it much anymore. Maybe I should consider listening to some podcast or something. But I don’t do that usually, so no idea where to start and searching for something requires looking it up on my laptop, which brings me back to my dry eyes and headaches.

    Maybe I can prepare something next time. Any suggestions for things that don’t require my eyes?





  • I am very much the same. When other people get a flu they still go to work and maybe take it easy. But for me I become incapable of doing basic things like cooking or taking care of myself. This obviously results in me feeling even worse.

    It actually got bad enough that I’m already not working for a while anymore. I’m just scared of getting sick while employed because it will quickly result in long sick leave and eventually in me resigning.

    I’m impressed that you can still go to work when feeling sick almost every day, I would not be able to do it.