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  • Let me say it plainly, you have been cheated out of growing up. Parents, teachers, they all have a duty to care for people in their, well, care. That is pretty fucked up.

    I was the weird kid once, I’m still a weird adult, but I was super lucky to have family and teachers that cared. I’ve seen lots of people with lots of mental issues that “turned out fine”, whatever that might be. Your experience is not the norm. I have a hard time imagining what went on in your parents’ heads. Some people are just genuinely bad people, I am sorry that you had to grow up with those.

    You know what sounds good? You seem to move from the self-hate towards hating those who caused you harm. Still not the best state of mind, but a lot better, trust me.

    Just from the random rant you post here, you don’t seem to be too dumb. Coherent sentences and all that. It’s a low bar, I know, but I’m not making fun of you, there are millions of people around you who would not clear it. Trust me, there are people that would consider stacking the shelves at the supermarket an intellectual challenge.

    So, yeah. The past is only going to get you so far. You’re still here, for whatever reason you haven’t jumped off a bridge yet. This is going to sound like “don’t be sad, lol”. But you’re (probably) young, seem to be physically mostly ok, and you’re not dumb. Maybe, every now and then, spend some time thinking about what to do with that. They say the best revenge is a life well lived.



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    Story time!

    Some years ago, I had to get up very early for a job. So, to make it easier on me, I bought/built some programmable LED lights and set them to gradually shift from dark red to bright blue-white.

    Fast forward some years, and I can comfortably ignore bright sunlight and 50W of white LEDs in my face. I don’t even bother to put down the shutters any more. I wake up, semi-consciously acknowledge that it is morning, turn around and continue sleeping.





  • Me neither. I was at one trade school and two universities in central Europe, and I haven’t heard of any serious bullying. At most at the trade school, because the average age was around 18-19 and “shop talk” is a bit rougher by default. But at uni, where half the people are like 25?












  • Honestly? I know nothing about your situation. So maybe this is completely off. In that case, sorry for being cliche. But try burger flipping (or shelve packing, or…) at least once. In the worst case, you have a better reason to hate the system now, in the best case, you get some routine. Or, I don’t know, help some people with stuff. Does not even matter what it is. But humans were not meant to do nothing.