Been into sissy porn, captions, etc for a few years. Ever since the pandemic I started to consume more porn and started to really crave being a sissy, suck a cock and being fucked. It got to the point where I opened a kik and started flirting with men online to make them cum.
Given how much fun and horny that made me I finally caved and decided to get grindr, message a few men until one made me feel safe enough and we agreed to meet up on his lunch break. He came over, pulled his cock out, I got on my knees and began to suck. I was a proper porn whore, his cock was all sloppy from my spit by the time he finished in my mouth and I drank it all.
I’m not exactly having regrets but I also don’t feel anything in particular. Like it felt hollow, my cock never even got hard during the blow job (though I did make a wet spot in my panties). I don’t know if I just hyped it up too much in my head because of all the hypno and captions saying I would feel addicted. So now I’m just wondering if I really am a sissy or this was just a fantasy that should be kept online. Any opinions or insights are appreciated
It’s been about 4 and a half hours now. I do think I simply over hyped it and bought into all the hypno and captions. Put the imagined experience on a pedestal and when it wasn’t that, it was like it all came crashing down.
Nah you’re overthinking it. Give it a couple days. Likely the memory of it all settles better than how it’s feeling now. For me it was the same way. After sucking my first cock I felt weird and like not excited but as time went on I felt better about the whole thing. To the point where I’m craving it again 🥵