I feel stressed and overwhelmed with the constant amount of stuff I have to do all the time. There’s work, there’s family, there’s chores, there’s personal finances, there’s my health, there’s personal relations, there’s a thousand little things that screams for my attention. Somewhere in there there’s also the desire to one day relax and maybe do something because I want to do it instead of it being something I have to do.
There’s just so much and the pile of tasks keeps growing and growing. I don’t have the time and energy to do half of what I feel I’m supposed to do and almost no time and energy to do what I have to do. I’m exhausted and stressed and I feel guilty all the time for letting people down.
I feel like I never have the time to do things right or to handle the problems that are draining my time and energy. Instead I’m constantly running around and putting out fires. If I were to put enough time and effort into actually improving some of the things that are stressing me it would mean I would have to let go somewhere else and suffer the ramifications.
I was diagnosed with ADHD a few years back. I got meds and they have improved things a lot but nobody helped me figure out how to organise daily life with ADHD. I don’t even know if time management would help, I don’t waste my time, I get things done, I just never get enough things done. And besides, what good is a schedule if there’s constantly some external factor demanding a change of plans?
How do you manage this?
I have no idea. Even simple things like a project at work can fuck hard with me. The worst thing it stresses me out during my off time while I cant do anything about it. I feel like I would need at least 3 months of nothing but laying back and watching anime and playing video games.
The six months I had during lockdown didn’t cut it, so don’t get your hopes up