I hate venting really but I’ve been kinda struggling these past few months (with some long periods of meh and downs since around 2021)

I’m more sad, angry and stressed in general these past few days. The whole student anti governmental thing here smells of color revolution. So my first year of college sure has been something. I hate myself for being somewhat a part of It. The situation here is kind of similar like in Syria except the violence and civil war to make It short. Where both sides kind of suck and I’m doubtful of things getting better.

Not to mention I’ve become a bit more misanthropic. Some people irl pointed out that I’ve become a bit more isolationist and less chatty over the last couple of months. Maybe It’s my introversion kicking in but hell I know. I did kind of start to become somewhat of a pessimist and doomer. I don’t really like feeling this way but I feel I can’t do much about It. I’m too much of a negative and social loser to do any change in general in general. Just wanting life to get over with.

That’s about It.