nothings happened yet wtf! where’s my instantaneous magical girl transformation?

seriously tho, i expected some mental change based on how ppl describe the euphoria of being on E, but ig that takes time just like the physical changes.

i can wait tho, i was so indescribably happy last night after injecting. i was tearing up and cuddling with my gf and had amazing sleep. it feels like a new chapter of my life that im more optimistic and joyful for than ive ever been! been waiting almost two years for this moment 🥹

thank you hexbear! i dont know how much longer it would have taken for me to discover my transness if i wasn’t a part of the site with the best trans community on the internet!

and im moving to a medium sized city in a month so ill be in a good place to transition compared to the rural area where i live

i am DIY and made four vials a couple weeks ago. then yesterday i sterilized them at 130C for 30 minutes, pretty easy in oil if you have a digital probe thermometer (i think ppl call them candy thermometers).

my regimen is 11 mg estradiol enanthate stabbed into my butt every 14 days. im planning on getting a blood test in 3 months and adjusting. p sure ill have to up the dose bc im 6’ and 200 lbs. prob gonna try to add progesterone in 6 months to a year even tho the studies on that haven’t been too promising in it helping transfems. prog can actually be pretty cheap if you DIY and mix a powder with coconut/cocoa oil and take it rectally.

  • Chronicon [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    6 months ago

    the thing is there’s not much point in autoclaving or otherwise sterilizing everything before you put the estrogen in because the powder itself is not going to be perfectly sterile (hence doing it after, cooking the entire finished vial at once) 120+C is a bit safer, but with the addition of benzyl alcohol I’m not extremely worried. I did consider getting a lab steam sterilizer (purpose built pressure cooker) but decided against it for at least the first batch. You can’t go too much past 130C iirc because it starts to affect the estrogen. I appreciate the concern and it’s a good PSA I suppose, but as much as possible any risks I’ve taken were done soberly and with awareness.

    But yeah if anyone else is going to do this I guess I’d advise doing the oil or pressurized steam method not just boiling water. That wasn’t really the point of my comment and I should have left it off. See my other comment for notes on needles.

    • Black_Mald_Futures [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
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      6 months ago

      I appreciate the concern and it’s a good PSA I suppose, but as much as possible any risks I’ve taken were done soberly and with awareness.

      solidarity

      with my cishet ignorance and your trans aware knowledge we’ve spread info to the universe, good job us m i rite

      • Chronicon [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
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        6 months ago

        stalin-heart

        The other thing I remembered was that the heat may make the benzyl alcohol more effective against spores:

        But yeah, higher temp better really (and if you can’t do that, then boil longer, 1hr or 2 separate intervals of 30m), I don’t mean to justify my laziness too much. This is also my first go at injecting things, but between friends who’ve gotten HRT from their doctors and reading on the internet I think I’m doing okay

        • Black_Mald_Futures [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
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          6 months ago

          The other thing I remembered was that the heat may make the benzyl alcohol more effective against spores:

          oh cool yeah that works then. I don’t know anything about benzyl alcohol but if it’s killin’ them spores at a lower temp and also injection safe then that’s p. cool

          higher temp better really (and if you can’t do that, then boil longer, 1hr or 2 separate intervals of 30m),

          Yeah higher temp always kills things better but the important thing is if limited to boiling temps to use multiple boiling intervals. I think we re-boiled at shorter intervals in my micro class but 30 minutes or more sounds better imo, let them spores think they’re safe then GETTEM hero-megalomania lol

          This is also my first go at injecting things, but between friends who’ve gotten HRT from their doctors and reading on the internet I think I’m doing okay

          well keep up the good work and keep doin’ okay fidel-salute