• Anarcho-Bolshevik@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
    161·
    5 months ago

    I feel like I am growing more and more antisocial by the month, and in ways that I never anticipated. My birthday was five days ago and I chose to avoid mentioning it (except to somebody on a Matrix channel). I gave up on voice chat with somebody because of some technical difficulties. I haven’t even touched Discord in a week, let alone attempted to communicate with others there.

    Lastly, there is something else that I feel too uncomfortable to talk about in public, but it has pushed me in the direction of more suicide ideation… the main reason that I quit ideating yesterday was that I was afraid of only reincarnating into a life even worse than this one, and I usually don’t enjoy gambling.

    • ComradeSalad@lemmygrad.ml
      10·
      5 months ago

      Happy Birthday : ) it sounds like it’s been rough for you, and while I can’t ever possibly know your situation, please treat yourself kindly. You’re a good person and you deserve to be happy. Even if it’s just treating yourself a little bit as a birthday gift, I hope things are able to look up for you.

      It was my birthday a few days ago too actually. I took off from work for the day, but no one remembered except for my babushka with a short text. It’s hard not being remembered, but things will look up.

      But again, Happy birthday! I hope this coming year will be better for you : )

    • 小莱卡@lemmygrad.ml
      6·
      5 months ago

      each one of us has its own particular conditions so i don’t know if it will work out for you, but for me going to the gym has helped a lot.

    • darkernations@lemmygrad.ml
      2·
      5 months ago

      Hopefully this may be useful (I will not ask specifics to maintain anonymity):

      1. If you are able to get access to medical care please book a consultation ASAP. Also look up national/local support phone numbers if possible/able for counselling/mental health/access to psychological therapy.
      2. CBT workbook: https://www.hpft.nhs.uk/media/1655/wellbeing-team-cbt-workshop-booklet-2016.pdf
      3. Exercise - Effect of exercise for depression: systematic review and meta-analysis of randomised controlled trials (TLDR sometimes can be as effective as anti-depressants) https://www.bmj.com/content/384/bmj-2023-075847 Even just doing jumping jacks till you sweat can help (aim 30 min if possible)
      4. However, if appropriate one may still need antidepressants/medication hence point number 1 (however, point number 1 is not just for medication).
      5. Find a supportive community; friends / a real life social network helps. Maybe look for local support groups?

      If I am barking up the wrong tree then please ignore me.

      /edits: clarity