I have experienced trauma my entire life. I just got out of a very emotionally abusive relationship. I developed severe PTSD symptoms in the last few years.

I’ve always felt that maybe I don’t think like most other people I encounter. I’ve always had a hard time connecting to people and seemed to attract some really bad people into my life.

I am very self aware, probably too much so. I am usually well liked and have never really had issues with social norms or anything. I do have some other habits that make me wonder. I’ve wondered if I’m schizophrenic before but I only meet a few of the criteria. My abusive ex tried to convince me I had borderline personality disorder, which I do have some symptoms of. However, these symptoms have lessoned since I left the relationship.

I think I might have high functioning autism, but I have never been evaluated. I am fairly intelligent and self aware so I know to hide a lot of my symptoms.

Anyways, I’m just wondering what are some traits you have?

  • EmoThugInMyPhase [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    6 months ago

    When someone is crying and venting their trauma on my shoulder and all I can think about is how nice her hair smells or I just have no reaction, even though I truly do have sympathy/empathy. For example, when my ex’s dog died, I didn’t feel anything. Part of it was because I only began dating her, but even then, I’ve cried my eyes out watching videos of people rescuing animals, sad movies and shows, but I just didn’t feel anything this time. I wanted her to feel better, but I didn’t know how. Or when I attend graduations and weddings, I just don’t feel anything.

    Falling asleep when you’re bored even if you’re tired. I find myself falling asleep in church and during lectures because I have to sit still for an hour and half with no stimuli aside from listening and writing occasionally. Even on caffeine and adderall ill pass out. Though I don’t know how universal this is despite some of the docs’ claims.

    I do have some other habits that make me wonder. I’ve wondered if I’m schizophrenic before but I only meet a few of the criteria.

    I recently found out that schizoid disorder and schizophrenia are two completely different things lol. Maybe see if one or the other are more accurate to your conditions.