I used to have problems with drinking and drugs in the past that I managed to overcome. I spent nearly a year sober before I started drinking again but I somehow was able to manage it all, like a ‘normal person’ would. Last year I did a dry January and this year I’m doing it as well. Spent my night drinking NA beers today and had a great time. They make some great NA beers these days and I honestly don’t see the point of drinking anymore.
Yeah I was in the same boat as you. People wouldn’t be able to tell right now but I used to be a party 7 days a week kind of guy and I spent my late teens early twenties drinking insane amount, doing all kinds of drugs and often times for days in a row without sleeping. And even though I can drink like a normal functional person right now I still get these weird urges from time to time, wanting to drink like an entire bottle of wine and then some more.
I enjoy a good and special glass of wine. I enjoy going to a vineyard while at holiday. I enjoy visiting a brewery from time to time. What I don’t enjoy is drinking the other 95% of the time because it makes me feel bloated, fucks up my sleeping and raises my anxietylevel. It does feel more sad indeed, especially if you think you need it to have fun.