I’m constantly drinking before or/and after work. I don’t usually drink when I don’t have to work. I don’t see how living this life and working a job like this for the rest of my working life makes sense. I don’t see how living this life could be worth it. I already see a psychiatrist, the meds make me functional but I still don’t see life as being worth it. I tend to read on Buddhism as a way to escape the suffering that is life. Do any of you relate?
So do you think the job is the problem? I’m not going to tell you to change that because reality doesn’t work that way. Maybe try to find a hobby or social activity, depending on your preference for being around people.
It’s a struggle. I wish you the best, comrade.
I feel you. It’s soul-draining to work as a pleb grinding away and under the geara of capitalism. My advice is to find your passion, what makes you tick. For me it was returning back to nature, reading and getting creative. Alcohol has a tendecy to get in the way of those pursuits, at least it did for me.
I would try and change up your routine (it’s not easy) to find something that really makes you happy. It wont necessarily happen overnight but when you find a genuine love than it’ll be worth the effort you put in in spades. I wish you the best and feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk to someone. We’re here for you comrade <3
I’d recommend listening to the “On Alcoholism” episode by Revolutionary Left Radio, its a long 3 hour talk about a guy explaining his alcoholism journey but he is incredibly charismatic so it’s not boring.
A good psychiatrist might help but i think what ultimately helped the podcast guest overcome his alcoholism was his local AA community, anyways i listened to that episode years ago so i am not exactly sure so you should listen to it since your problem seems similar to his.
